This time, I'm going to be prepared. Maybe.
My goal will be not to cry this time. And if he steps out again? I'll call it another lesson and try and agin next time. Thinking back, there was really no need for the tears - it just made me look and feel ungrateful. He was trying and did give everything a go!
This time, we're doing two tests. So if he were to do badly in the first one, I'll be able to have a feel of what to do better in the second one.
Preparatory B is the one I had chosen. And gee, I really wish I had looked at it before I put my name down because it's more difficult than the Preliminary (in my opinion.)
When I rode it in my lesson today for the first time, I did leave feeling a little bit better about it. But still extremely worried I'll forget everything ever.
As for the Preliminary, it's burnt into my brain - so hopefully I'll at least get a score this time and he won't just randomly canter because that seems like a cool thing to do, like he was doing our whole lesson today...
I'm praying to the high heavens the floating won't be as much of a battle as last time. A friend has ever so generously offered her float for me to do some training in on Saturday, bless her, and I'll be cramming some last minute practice throughout the week and literally the last minute, so fingers crossed (!!) this'll be the one.
